hapi 4 yrs! :)

It's been f-o-u-r years since we got here. and as usual, it's inevitable for me to look back on where I've been and where I am now.

Four years ago, I have been the anywhere-but-here girl. I just want to leave this miserable place and go back home. I am kicking and screaming, thinking that this move ruined my life. My motto in life then was "What's the point?" para san pa kung d ko rin xa mkakasama. talaga naman! kung pwede lang manipa ng past self e. hehehe :D I was drowning myself in self-pity, sorrow and bitterness. I refused to make myself like it here. Everything is "not enough". Everything is "walang kwenta compared sa Pinas". I spent majority of my time dreaming about Pinas and what I would have been doing if I were there.

Four years later, here I am thinking that this move has been the best decision my family has ever made. It literally save our family in more ways than one. Never again will my parents work late and go home in an ungodly hour just to make ends meet for us. Never again would me and my siblings spend weekends in the house with "Ate [insert name here]" while my parents work some more. I can actually see my parents relaxing now. We can actually go out during weekends just to do whatever.and I don't know how long it's been since I last heard the words, "San tyo kukuha ng pang-tuition?" We have student loan now for the college kids and the tuition for my highschool siblings is affordable. I can honestly say that this country made our family closer and stronger. I can't emphasize enough how much this country has been good to us. Life is simpler, safer, cleaner and just downright easier. and it doesn't hurt to have a life like that. less exciting yes, but how long can you handle excitement before you get too tired, anyway?we can search for our own excitement here.

I can't believe how blind I was from all these blessings.It's really true that you see what u choose to see.If I wasn't too busy thinking about myself and a certain boy back then, I would've seen the light sooner. It's amazing how a guy can ruin a girl's perspective. hahaha :P nanisi tlga! note to self: family trumps boy everytime.

They said "Everything happens for a Reason" and it may have taken four years to actually get what that reason is but I believe it all happened in good time. and although i still think that Pinas kicks NZ's ass (no question), I now consider this place home too :) 

 

 

"The things you can't change, they end up changing you"
bullseye to ser. salamat!